Deadbeat holidays

Right now,I'm watching Pororo in desperate times to pick up korean. hahah

Am fretting over Xmas presents.

Am fretting over temperature in Seoul.

Am fretting over the jabs I am going to take later.

Am upset over why I did so badly over exams

Am angry over why I did not practise uku

I'm always about negativity.

Which is bad.

I promise I will be a good person and fill myself w more positivity.

x

Upset

I tried so hard not to.

I tried not to be distracted.

I tried to control my emotions and attempted to forgive.

But afterall, I'm human.

I can't help it.

&

It is my decision to determine what is impt to me.

How could you just pretend not seeing the difficult times I went through

.....

Sometimes I am so scared because there's no one I could trust.

Free Spirit

Love this album.
Saw that LOVE thingy from typo.

Shall buy it soon and paint it like the sculpture.

If I leave, would you leave with me or ask me to stay?

Feeling pretty excited.

#hope

I think I found that while looking for love.

Pride & Love

Oh hi,

Been sleeping too much but still too tired.

Oh well.

Trying to cope with disappointments and all.

It helps to have a little more time to think,breathe and reflect.

....

With time, le me indulge in watching tv and being a couch potato.

& so, encountered a scene.

It makes me realised how love is beyond your pride.

Often, we find the easy way out, isn't it?

Transparent

Seen through but untouchable.

Needs soome help w my photography project.

Not sure how it goes.

Life's been down.

Sucks much.

This too shall pass.

It will happen eventually.

The issue about death is back again.

It makes me want to think about why am I not spending time w my family.

Makes me worried.

After all my parents ain't your typical age parents.

Makes me think about fillial piety v my own self.

Sacrifice.

Alot of times we need to make some of them, isn't it?

....

Unsettling issues made me jittery.
I get nervous.
The atmosphere makes just wanna curled on my bed.
Got odd feeling with regards to something.
Hope I'm wrong.
.....

Remaining films shall be used to make photos with my theme.
I wonder how awesome will it be.
Let it be let it be.
.....

Wallflower is me.

Was pretty surprised by the number of seats occupied.

The lure of Emma Watson and Logan Lerman seems strong enough. (No?)
Couldn't really remember how long ago did I read that book.

The show was alright

Book was better (as always)

Erza Miller is rlly cute.

&&

I am so indie.

Le sigh.

...

So many more movies I wanna watch.

Time time.

My fitness trainer just casually mentioned that if I continued to sleep for like 3-4hrs daily, I am gonna die early.

So brutal.

Holla

On an odd night like this,

here I am - the keyboard warrior.

Felt as embarrassed as usual after tearing up while reading a book.
Not anywhere unusual, just on ferry with almost every seat filled.
Le sigh.

“You have to be the bravest person in the world to go out everyday being yourself when no one likes who you are.”

"But when I disappear, I won't be sad anymore. I won't be sad anymore. So I'm just sad now."

"There's nothing worse than nothing. But if it's nothing, I won't know it because I'll be nothing."

"The whole world will go on without you. Like you were never here. And then someday everyone who knows you will be dead, too, and then it will be like you never, ever existed. Doesn't that make you sad?"

--- Memoirs of an imaginary friend

Waiting. Existence. Disappearance.

On days where I am slipping away.

如果沒有擁有, 就沒有失去
那我為什麼傷心?

I got so many things spinning in my head.
My theory on several things.
My ideas on several issues.
My new excitement.
I need to let my sediments settle down.

What am I supposed to say?
What am I supposed to feel?
On days when I feel like slipping away
It's too painful.
Ready to leave & never settle.

Im heartbroken.
I am like a cat.
I will be a superman.
I will be lucky.
I am contented.
I will sleep.
I will figure out what to do with blogger.
One day.

Moustache.

My colleague was shocked to know about my taste in men.

What's with selecting guys that are from this specific country and whats not.

...

Writer's block.

Much as I wanted to begin my 13-14 page report.

I am still currently lacking the motivation to start.

Oh boy, tell me why I need feel to make things work.

Angry at my right brain.

....

Speaking of which holidays is within grasp.

Just that, just that.

Shall buy films shall dance around shall wait for rain shall give hugs shall cut my hair shall roll around shall do nothing

Shall wait.

Every night when I sleep, the thing I am glad about is that my heart is on my left side.



(OMG SUCH A BIMBOTIC POST!)

 

*inhale breath 

IM SOOO TIREDD  

I can sleep the whole day away if only

I guess that explains why my hair strands are falling off at astonishing speed these few days.

GASPS

Made several decisions again.

Can't wait for holidays.

Felt like having a henna again.

....

& in contemplation (nearly typed it as comtemplation which i really hate it when people do typo anyway) to shift this away to another place.

Should I?

....

Shall go sleep

Wna go curl my hair tmr morning

*flicks hair

xx the vain girl

As usual, thinking about things.



While la kopi-ing with cousin today, we are talking about endings.


How endings are not endings.


What happened after endings.


How endings should be bittersweet


For the pain experienced will never make one feel happy the same again.



INTRODUCTIONS

Well, I never do good in introductions.
How do I compress my character after living for 21 years to a few words/lines.

How true are they?

What's there in truth anyway?

Those words (beautiful or not) can only paint a side of me.

Not all.

Because, I don't even know how sides of me I am.

Poly-me.

I guess after all too many to tell

....

I guess the closest to introduction for me is

"come closer not too close"

"Detachment, but not inaction."

Confused after reading Hector journey series.

The monk said why inaction instead of do nothing?

You will figure out why.

....



REPLIES

Sometimes, all we want is a reply.

Sometimes, a silence is a reply.

Sometimes, silence meant nothing.

Sometimes, silence meant something.

We are not annoyed of replies.

We are just tired of waiting.

To the point, you nearly give up.

Give up on all that was built and established previously.

How could a reply or a non reply destroy everything?

That's the power of replies.

....

Am reading Hector series again
Should be the last one
It's about time.
Time doesn't exist.
You cant speak of the past, future for it doesn't exist already/yet.
& for present, by the time you speak of it, it became past already.
Im such a conflicted soul.
....

大愛

As usual, conversation with my momsy.

I was asking her how much she love me.

(Typical questions include do you miss me when I'm away etc.)

LOL

Im so childish (can't stand myself)

So she was asking me this qn.

I replied with little love

Wise momsy said: 小愛就不要愛

...

Sometimes I felt like a Voldemort

Of course not in a bad way.

He places his hocruxes in different places.

I placed how I feel in different places.

Places to keep that emotion away, tuck safely somewhere which no one can hurt me with.

Can't figure out how many places there will be in total

....

I wish poddy could function properly

then I could place all the new songs I want to hear in.

原來不後悔很難

Remembered my birthday wish suddenly haha
Okay so things to do on my life list:
/edit

- Ice skate
- Roller blade
- Visit Pulau Ubin
- Catch butterflies
- Throw a basketball into hoop

 

Violin Concerto in D Minor

What's left of us is just grey matter.

Ashes hold no competition to memories.

Memories of me being a kite able to fly.

Memories of me watching him watering the plants in his pyjamas striped pants.

....

Finished reading all the hunger games as well.

Feeling all hollow after that.

But then today I found spark again.

Spark to strike a fire.

Spark that reminded me how things were in the past.

How simple were there.

....

Time to make my midyear checklist to review performance and things done!

Not sleeping.

Sometimes, you dare not sleep because you are afraid things will change when you wake up.

Sometimes, there are too many things on your mind.

Sometimes, you are not sleeping because not sleeping will keep you alert

...

Have you ever wonder?

Who will be the people at your funeral?

Are they really upset over your death?

Or they are there because they have to or they are there to see & be seen & eat the free food?

Im still skeptical about it

....

Anyway fuck sacrifices

Fuck trust

Fuck understanding

Im so emotionally volatile now.

很多事情不是你假装看不见，他们就不存在

.....

Pretense.

It's always the closest that hurts the most.

I-need-to list:

1. Get a bloody A for facil management (No way I must let my fellow pfm course down)
2. Get my work work done
3. Prepare my presentation slides + finish report (Up priority, linked with #1)
4. meet all the other people to pass my tw stuff to them
5.find a solution to remove the darkness in me
6.find time to have a proper conversation with brother
7.Schedule time for dentist & haircut
8.Sell more clothes/find more jobs
9.Figure out vans or keds
10.Unpack

# la sardina

I like films.

I like the element of surprise.

I like how the photos turn out to be that made you smiled/shocked etc.

Even if the whole roll of film, I managed to salvage only 4.

I am thankful.

Art is the continuous action to creation.

Maybe, my photos are not good enough yet.

I will scan them up soon.

YAY I mad love multiple exposure.

Because I'm not good enough?

Watching the shrewd wife, even the "perfect" guy felt so insecure in front of love.

He wondered about if he's not good enough which is why the divorcee rejected him.

....

Well, I wondered about that when I happened to be in a crowd of girls.

I dont meant people i know

But rather all the mass crowd out there.

I wonder what makes someone decide to choose me instead of all other people else.

They are prettier, taller, skinnier, richer, smarter, more popular and the list goes on.

Why would someone do that when I can't even be sure that I would do the same for him?

It's funny

I try to be good enough.

But the problem is there're always people better.

 I realise I will never be the best.

If my target market is mass market, I guess I will have to be like the regular girl.

But since I decide I'm not like them, well let it be.

Maybe, my "good enough" isn't so in the 1st place too.

I am back!

Bit tired.

Getting back to hectic lifestyle.

Time to make some changes again.

Can't wait to share the photos I have took with my baby

Love xx

I'm such an emo nemo these days.

Blues blues.

....

I'm too tired to express myself.

To speak for myself

To do something for myself.

To make myself smile.

I just want to sit and let my mind wander.

I am scared suddenly.

I wish:

- I could stop my mind from thinking
- my left wrist would stop hurting
- I could decide whether to buy that aldo sandals or my la sardina
- I could make up my mind who to trust
- there is someone to eat dinner with me not next to me
- it would be like in the past
- finished up all my work
- MLP would be a success
- leave without fear, without prejudice, without unsorted feelings

Could it be?

I realised that recently, when I watched romance movies, I seldom teared anymore.

Like The Vow, I heard some of them in the cinema sobbing away but yet, I was like "hmm alright, what's wrong?"

While watching the apple of the eye, I was still unmoved.

Funny much, when I used to watch all those japanese/korean movies & shows and cried a bucket.

I have grown strong I guess.

Braver soul.

.....

Went running for my first race today.

Happy girl

Striking off one more thing accomplished.

Although chilli padi issue still pissed the events spirit in us big time.

LOL

Team fruit basket <3

My brother is the sweetest person!

He knew about the item that I wanted real badly but didn't receive it.

He's considering whether to get that for me. HEHE

lucky you, my future/current non-existence sis-in-law

& now he's giving me advice on what kind of guys is good for me with courtesy of august man A-listers. LOL

<3

"I knew why Reid had fallen for her. Not in spite of the fact that she was so sheltered but because of it. He would be there for all these firsts - her first bank account, her first sexual encounter, her first job. I'd never been someone's first anything, unless you counted mistake." - Sing You Home

I'm a lucky girl.

I vaguely remembered when Plaza Singapura was not Plaza Singapura

When it has one of the basements that I liked cause their advertisements that turned & the ultra huge macdonald's

About that time, I remembered about love.

I remembered the wooden benches on the bus stop which I would wait for 14 to get home.

I remembered the times where the 4 words would be zoomed past my eyes as we were heading back.

I liked that sculpture/statue/art piece.

....

When I was slightly older (or I would say few years back), I sat outside with my friends with that.

Happy days where we were young, innocent and had nothing to lose.

& suddenly, it was gone.

Love was gone.

Yesterday, I saw it.

I found it hidden in a corner again in town.

It should be the right one.

I guess since it's blue in colour.

I was elated.

It's like long lost friend to me.

It sounded ridiculous when I saw love in Taipei, in Shinjuku, it felt as if I was safe too.

I felt loved for all the birthday celebrations with everyone that celebrated with me.

Thank you for telling me I meant something to you.

At least, I mattered at this point of time to you, or once.

Thank you for making me so happy.

I love you all.

" I carry you in my heart, I carry it in my heart."

Procrastination at its best.

I remembered way way back in horrible nan hua days (the part where I dread school alot because people then judged, too much)

I wrote in my notebook that I wished very hard for nice girlfriends in my future class.

Who loved me for me.

Who don't judge.

Who would make me real happy.

That day where yongmei asked me to write something about the trip or to them.

I thought of it.

I realised my wish did came true.

That I had one of the happiest memories in my poly days with my classmates.

& my clique of auntie clans (we're vv glam people okay!)

That they are one of the best things I ever had.

So here's to them (in no particular order because I know yongmei is going to get jealous) :

Yongmei

I like to listen to her stories. Her mama's stories/ her taxi uncle stories/ her ye su stories & more...

All the little bickerings (where we ended with combos), all the "ni shi left hander leh", all the "psychology taught me that.." & the furry furry clothes you wore.

You made me happy and mad all the time. We had a volatile relationship lol but I guess when we get angry at each other, it's because we care about it ♥

Wenyi

My shopping/whining/gossip/problem solving/exploring gf

My all in one person to look for when Idk what to do.

Like the day when I dk which job to pick at UOB plaza.

Thank you for always giving me advice <3

I think your honesty towards things gave me alot of courage.

Project budget queen II should be up & coming soon :)

Puihoon

My No.14 bus partner

Love the days where we have each other as company on our way.

Random chit chatting on bus made our busride so much faster

As well as complaining of bus drivers HAHAHA

I like to fall asleep next to you on bus because I felt safe.

That sometimes I will just keep smiling while dozing off when you're still talking.

& how randomly we drop off bus to go swirl art to talk.

Time to drive me to go supper ♥

Theresa

My 1st friend ever in poly!

My travelling buddy where we can put flags on countries

Hk, bkk & macau + mini M'sia

We are going to take the world down hahaha

You made me laugh at random day-to-day spottings/dramas

Thank you for always putting in effort to make cards/plan outings/take photos/random texts just to check if I'm ok

Sometimes I felt so bad when I know the positive treesir gets upset yet I can't do anything.

lots of xoxo for you & 2d1n makan soon ♥

Angela

My brave mama/planning itinerary team

While you are probably using your elbow to unlock your iphone now, here's to you

Remember the days when I asked why you kept working?

You told me if don't work will spend money also

I get you now hahaha!

Late bloomer me

I dont get to see you as much as others but I know, we always pick up from where we stop.

& you always make me felt a glimpse of hope for love ^^

Grace

My sleeping queen grace.

If I'm playing the role of a strict parent to ym, then I must be like a mother to grace xiao pang. AHHAHA

Always fussing over you, like school.

Your love for cooking, your love for travel, your occasional missing in action.

Sometimes I felt like we're similar hahaha

I want to see your photos soon (:

& you need to be in training on how to tell a lie

PS this is a vv not subtle hint that I miss your cheesecake ^^

Pearly

The last for the best.

The missing person I don't get to see very often as well!

I'm happy for you in getting the new job (:

Although very shy and tiny, rain or shine, I remembered I know you'll be there in class like procuring/negotiation (8am class!)

We will eat bread while waiting and wonder why nobody there yet.

HAHAHA

I want to see you soon & you must take care of yourself ♥

To all, thank you.

Thank you for accepting the whiny me

Thank you for bearing my occasional bad temper

Thank you for listening to /doing some of my crazy thoughts & activities

Thank you for leaving me with so many memories & with so much more to come

I love you!

/edit I wanted to write something else but I ended up forgetting it. LOL

Officially 1 week away

Despite being one of the most important years, my feelings towards it was like bleah.

All right.

Too busy with things

Too busy to care

After all, the more I care, things usually turned out worse, isn't it?

....

Need to stay more focus on school.

4.0 4.0

Will work vv hard after all I have only 2 modules this time round.

Le sigh.

Off to have some fun from tomorrow onwards!

Nusa Dua, Bali - Indonesia

"I figure if I want things to happen, I must make it happen." - Me

After much persuasion, yay we're going to Bali.
I will try my very best to provide information & experience throughout my trip this time.
It's pretty exciting plus fun cause it's my first time there & of course, march is my fav month (mom & my birthday!)

Bali Trip - Day 1

Flying with Airasia for the first time, I must say I'm pretty impressed with them.
No delays, terminal 1 & the food is cheaper than jetstar. (Great!)
& so we arrived at the airport earlier due to turbulence.

Received a shock at the airport.
Apparently, the airport has no aircon (once you are at the exit even the departure area seemed so hot) & looked like our neighbourhood shelter area.
Managed to get a cab to our hotel at RP95,000.

Along the way, it's rather a smooth way towards Nusa Dua where all the huge hotel chains are located.
On the contrary, the opposite route was suffering from a terrible jam (Note: 1 way route towards everywhere else - Kuta, Ubud, Denpasar etc)


& YAY, we arrived at Courtyard by Marriott.
According to my google bff, it's the 900th Marriott hotel & the first in Bali.
Next to Novotel if you need a better direction after all, it's opened for a year only.
Everything is new & not all travel books featured it (I checked!)

While waiting for check-in, was complaining to mom how thirsty I was
& voila, my welcome drink ^^Got upgraded to a poolside terrace
So here's the room:

To note: Pool opens from 8am to 9pm daily.
Never attempt to wake up at 6am, to find a way to swim (like me)
Pool is at 1.4m depth
& do swim at evening time as there will be live music from the little pool side bar (Yes, I attempted to listen to hey soul sister while swimming)

Check out the high-tech lift which I liked :

& I started roaming around while my brother lazed around

Lvl 2 towards spa to check out
Exterior

& We decided it's time for dinner.
Being a lazy brother, he brought us to Bali Collection (shopping mall)
There's a shuttle bus that picked us up but it's windowless
Pretty cool for me haha
They will drop you off at Lobby B and the pickup service is at Lobby C

Looked around and there's like starbucks, sogo, local souvenir stores & restaurants
We ate at Mai Mai.
Just to share I spotted a squirrel, a frog at Bali Collection LOL

We tried different dishes like the minced duck, fried chicken and grilled chicken in balinese style.
Liked the duck one best because I ordered that HAHA
The billed turned out about S$10/person & we ordered drinks.

After that, we visited the local mart (my fav activity of all times!)

Leaving Bali Collection:
Back in hotel to attempt to swim but it's too dark and late.
So I decided to spend some time investigating the fruit basket given.
Spotted the scaly fruit and peeled it which turned out to be average.


PS There's a security for you to clear everytime you entered Courtyard by Marriott.

Alright about there then!

Holla

I'm back!

Pretty much happygirl91

HEHEH

will blog about my trip soon

meanwhile let me nurse all the wounds and cuts on me.

Much as I dont want,

I still went to have a look.

I hate it when everytime I come to this point, I get very upset.

I dont know why I doubt myself everytime.

I know I know.

Part of me want to do it so badly again.

But it's all about choice isn't it?

Should I?

Driving

I will like to say FINALLY!

hahaha

Good things always happen in march

meow!

....

& I changed my phone too

Although bloody pissed but still hope to have a good relationship with it LOL

Love & Shoes

Random analogy that was sparked off probably because my shoes spoil ever so often

So here goes:

......

Finding love is like finding shoes.

We all wanted shoes to be good looking, comfortable, multiple purpose & of course at our ideal price.

Shoes who are nice looking generally bite & give you blisters (just like gd looking bastards)

Shoes that are comfortable, we generally complain abt them looking shabby/ugly/dowdy (just like the good guys)

We don't want shoes that can only wear for special occasions (not realistic!)

We don't want shoes that are beyond our budget (not worth the sacrifice)

When shoes don't fit, we try to change it.

Add soles, stick plaster to make it work, just like relationships.
Ultimately, we know deep down, it's not the perfect pair at all.

Which is why we ended up throwing it away & buying more shoes like how we get in & out of relationships.

For me, I'm such a clumsy person.
I want shoes that are not slippery.

I do not want to fall and fall over again & having to climb up myself.

"只有不愛你的人才會用"我沒時間"當作藉口, 愛你的, 只要有心,處處都擠出時間" - 女王

I love her books!

Always so positive

Quite alot of things she mentioned I find quite true.

.....

Roam around to look for bakery

Found 1 quite near my place.

Bought a small cake for sampling

Will update how it goes

&& I painted banana potato nails.

Mad loveeee <3

I like happy occasions

makes me happy & hopeful

:>

Happy birthday lala mama!

Need to get my lazy ass on settling accom

Honestly, target: thurs.

Anw felt sick again.
I really wna strangle myself at times

....

Lusting over La Sardina.

Omg multiple exposures me likeyyy

Should I get one?

but films are burn burn burn money

....

Holidays! YAY

Here's a decent picture of me.

Not doing anything funny LOL

School's finally off for 2 wks.

Gonna be busy though

HEHHE

1st day of holidays I'm doing work already

& working is enough for me to pay for my driving test.

How sad :<

Can anyone bring me for food trips? hehehe

Official fangirl of this song!
Love the potato part, so engrossed in singing that minion :D
Mad love <3<3
still in the midst of battling literature.
I can do it by tonight!!!!

Names.

I dont stick by my name.

Name is just a word.

I stick by my attitude.

Movies I want to watch/catch up with during Holidays

1.Hugo

2. 127 Hours

3. 50-50

Things to do during Holidays

1. Get my license (once & for all)

2. Pack my luggage for holidays

3. Settle travel plans

4. Look forward to birthday (kinda difficult)

5. Sell/trade/ sew my clothes

.....

& I feel goddamn shallow

because....

I know takashi murakami from the lv bag he designed

not through my art professor.

Face palm

This isn't how I look like now.

My bones feel like breaking.

It hurts so bad.

Sneezing, coughing.

Every other few hours I have to eat medicine.

Nooooooo
& I have got art test to study & topic to pick for my speeech.

.....

I just want March to come.

Roam around the streets, cross my legs and sun basking during lazy afternoons.

Condition: I must get well 1st.

Seriously cry out loud.

40 more pills to go

I feel so sick.

Really.

Why can't I recover?

.....

Too many things to fret over.

Who will hear it?

就因為我沒有那麼偉大 我就不配愛人 我就不值得被愛嗎?

Watching Love 愛 I felt so confused

Money or love?

Ha, forever a question.

Shed some tears probably will make me feel better with all bad luck following me.

With the doctor telling me it's food allergy that caused the irritation, I am supposed to abide to only 3 meals a day.

I think it's killing me.

I felt so terrible now.

Rough patch

Suffering from a cough & I'm having a speech presentation on monday

Good luck to me

Tiger airways just change flight timing just like that

Very pissed!

I think the whole world is out to annoy me today

You & your lies.

若要人不知,除非己莫为

Spoilt day!

#TOGETHER ALONE

Cheers to all my lovely single friends, I am with you hahahah

Spent the night working and feeling feverish

tell me how can it be possible.

Feeling horrible :(

....

Was listening to Van Vogh's stories told by my art prof ystd

I felt so heavyhearted

The traits of him sometimes I see it in myself.

Oh horror.

What if I became like him? (No, obviously not talking abt the ear)

Le sigh

Dear weather, pls be kind to my brother.

Japan's weather is out to kill man.

....

Having a short little break from my world literature posting

OMG.

2 more readings to read, art history test next wk, & there's work along with work 2.0

Argh

I can do it!

....

2 months shy

Hi it's me, with a swollen eye, sore throat and an awful lot of things to do.

I'm officially 2 months shy away from my 21st.

Thinking what I should do.

Here you go:

This is an open tender to everyone who is interested to join to travel (LOL):

I am free on 30-1st April , 6-8th Apr

I can squeeze another one in the mid March as well.

Otherwise, please wait for August.

What I really want to do for my birthday are things I have never done before, prolly crazy/mad if you find

1. Travel alone (check)

2. Ice skate

3. Run a run/marthon

4. Catch butterflies with a butterfly net

5. Basketball in the hoop (I am determined, provide ladder if you want please)

6. Dance in the rain

7. Travel with friendsss

8. Visit Pulau Ubin

9. Roller blade

10. Put fireworks

so, if you will like to fulfill some of the things with me, lmk in advance.

I will xoxo you. xiexie kthxbye

#justsaying

People who love me will still love me

People who dont love me wont give a damn about it

People who are curious will just give me a second

If you care for me, you will still be here no matter what.

If I don't hold a spot at all in your heart, it does not matter whether I am there anot.

If I ask for your presence, will you be here?

CNY

As we grow older, CNY got less fun.

I watched the 85-yo woman who used to be so fierce, became a frail, forgetful one.

So upsetting.

Ever so often, your name was a question

So familiar yet so strange I guess.

.....

Time to do some running.

Had not tried some good pineapple tarts this yr

bleah

Let January begin!

Trying to make the best out of everything.

Including washing toilet bowl & clothes.

& I made the most horrible mushroom omelette the other day.
Still gotta finished everything because no one is at home.

:'<

没人疼的孩子 & my ankle is hurting

.....

CNY is REALLY coming.

like seriously.

Im in panic mode I swear

Because, I have got no idea what to wear, have yet bought cny goodies ( ahhh the gigantic pineapple tarts!)

Sigh.

....

Excited abt my exercise tmr :D

Lypophrenia - A vague feeling of sadness seemingly without cause

Strangely, this always kicks in.

Sigh, funny me.

I wish I like people more sometimes.

I wish I...

& seriously, I need to start doing that damned thing before I get stranded in May.