Dear 2011,

I think you were better than 2010.
I hope my curse for even years will break next year.
Carpe diem after all nothing is definite.
xx

Feel like writing alot of things at a shot.
Too many things in my mind.

reading evil plans now
need to keep readinggg

Dear Santa,

Thank you for not replying my mails for 2 yrs straight in a row.
I think I am growing up.
Hmmmm.

I feel happy-sad this xmas.
Suddenly, suddenly.

Time to meet ppl, time to have fun, time to sleep!

To those who find me matter to them, thank you.

Let go

My current two fav words atm
2 funny wordsss

.....

Have yet watched 50/50.

MEGA SAD FACE

Ratio of happy to unhappy people

I think it's 1:1.

Because one forgoes own's happiness to make the other happy.

Grateful

Had a great day (really, honestly)

Hang out with one of my fav ppl (:

Learnt something new

Shopped for xmas presents stuff

Received my 1st xmas present from someone I barely knew

& feeling life is great.

Thank you, may everyday be this way.

Read this: 6000 polaroids for 18 years till he dies

What makes love true?

I stood here.
I look around and I wonder.
Hmmm, it sparkles.

OMG I wanna do the free hugs thingy on street one day too! Like so funnnn

Breaking Dawn VS 50/50.
I can tell the type of person I am already.

Popped the pill

So any moment I guessed I am going to fall asleep.

Am feeling really horrible

Sneezed till my throat got swollen I think.

...

Got a presentation tmr.

Am really nervous.

Don't wna screw things up.

&alternative music always!

因为害怕 所以要去找一个人面对世界的勇气

Fading henna

Am so tired recently.
24hrs isn't enough
I need to complete alot of assignments this weekend.
Got a dozen of books that I borrowed and badly want to read
Have yet book air tickets also.
....

& I want to drink my christmas toffee latte or smth like tt
or woobbee
Note to self: Write to santa

& I need to eat lunch.
Been skipping lunch-es :<

& Iphone is pissing me off seriously.
I have no idea how to use that!

也許不停被人辜負才會珍惜呵護笑得淚眼模糊

Only when you realise what you have lost, you will cherish what you will have.
Need to free up my soul for awhile soon.

My heart screams lots of vulgarities everyday

Mega tired.

Mega high pile of work to be done.

Come on, I can do it.

I think I lie.LOL

那些年 我都不是被追的女孩

Surprisingly, I didn't cried buckets.

Let alone shed a tear.

No, not that I am moved by it.

It makes me wonder about does love is used to prove a point to others that you are more superior than others for you are loved.

When you are loved, that means you must have certain good quality that attracts someone.

I dont know.

....

& does love really changes in its form as is we grow up?

Do we really settle because we are afraid that we are going to miss our assumed the love of our life?

Do we marry someone we know we will be safe with.

I can't tell.

....

Now I'm starting to hear more stories about marriage.

More stories about getting married.

Hmm, not much difference to me.

If you are going to live till 80yrs old & you get married at 28( let's say)

You are going to spend your 52 years with someone else.

Someone that changes and who may not be the person you love in the 1st place.

It's odd.

....

Maybe that's me.

The person who never trusts easily.

For now, I half believe in love.

Just love, love at the moment.

....

依然愛你

Nostalgia.

These are how powerful photos are.

I miss them I will tell them.

....

I shall hang my duffy bear on my old phone :D
I am so tired.

I dont like deleting texts

Am preparing to temporary migrate to my brother's phone.
So I need to uproot everything in my phone to his.
I feel sad because my sim card can't take all the texts with me.
The texts that make me smile, those texts that made my heart skip a beat, those texts that I read and feel so sad.
& I have to delete them all away.
I dont like it.

....
Not one left.
:(

To die for, tanglin halt peanut pancake!

Woke up at 7 to go buy it.

No joke haha.

Next up, butter chicken LOL

Growing.

There's me buying 6 bottles of contact lens solution while people are heading over to Sentosa on a friday night.
That's me.
I can't tell if am I really too different.
....
Oh yes, if you people got sports shoes that you don't want
Pls, go donate over to Running Lab.
Last 2 days though!
They are gonna send to the needy people.
& you get vouchers and chance to win a trip
I think it's kinda horrible.
You need incentive to do charity.
....

I promise to write here soon. x

火很大

Driving generally makes my blood boils

Be it me as the person who drives or the person driving.

Seriously.

Despite eating my ming jian kueh & twelve cupcakes cupcake,

Still totally spoil my mood.

Angry much.

& I'm gonna say this which is going to make ppl angry but I'm too angry to care alr.

I feel fat.

There I said it bye.

"I like experiments"

I realise I am a stomach over mind person more than heart over mind person.

So stomach > heart

I have an exciting day inspecting all the gummys today.

Just to check if they are beef/pork gelatine (GASPS)

Same same but different runs in blood.

Oh God, jetstar is down. crap

I am so volatile recently.

I am so tired of your physical barrier.

"Anyone can accuse you of anything, and the burden is on you to prove you didn't do it"

"Most of us are too quick to call people friends, too quick to say "I love you" and too quick to write people off forever"

"Real love wants to keep on loving."

Am doing some reading.

I feel so overwhelmed by emotions recently.

&I decide a guy who is gonna peel chicken for me before he eats himself is a keeper. LOL just like Amelia (L)

Bhutan

I feel so happy for Bhutan king.

I was watching the news and saw the part abt his marriage ceremony.

He looks so happy when he looks at the queen.

Omg, true love.

No wonder, there is a reason why they are like the happiest people in the world.

....

Bali earthquake.

Oh my.

You me he she they we, what do you think?

I think about it, cause we miss it.

hehe

I think I'm rather emotionally unavailable.

Must we really do this as we grow older?

Seriously, I get tired.

People are scary.

I dont like them

I can't deal with them always.

I need to recharge.

Don't they recharge too?

....

Have people around doesn't equal to happiness and may equate to loneliness.

I miss writing here

I miss writing what is inside me and that being translated to words here.

4 hours of sleep recently resulted to a coughing me.

Sounds like one old granny now.

Damn annoying.

I hope to go running tomorrow.

But my feet hurts. *sad face

It's been hurting for the past few days (Hates F1! even my poor hand got cut damn badly)

But it's life.

I hope I'm not getting crippled or what.

Cause my mumsy asked me to visit the doc but I wna visit sinseh.

So scared.

All my shoes are spoiling.

Sigh.

& I got no money to get them

School fees argh

My big fat face

Taken at 8am early in the morning.

When I am the first in class & have gt nothing to do.

Enjoy the view behind me yeah

LOL

& my classmates dont camwhore for the fun of camwhoring

Awwww so bored

....

Super busy now.

With work and driving and studies.

I passed my ftt anw.

Not good enough :(

My hands got a couple of wounds.

Sigh n my foot feels numb

My dentist is super funny.

" You should study when you're young. Because school fees are gonna go sky high next time. Just study 1st."

Bye gonna reach at 8am again.

Bloody im annoyed.

Cold Light

Need to finish more books!

They are all waiting for me

Argh

So nervousss for this wk

Alot of things to do.

:<

Sigh

Maybe you ain't after all

-The Art of Non-Conformity





I wonder 5 years is how long?
Is 5 years gonna be 1/2, 1/3, 1/4 or 1/5 or my life?
It used to be the former but now the latter.
How many 5 years are we gonna have?
I feel old.

.....



Keep me happy.

OMG should I do nike run?

Damn, I need to bitch.

Im totally annoyed seriously.

Every night, I have no idea why but I am always dreaming instead of sleeping.
Irritating ttm.

& I can't rmb what Im dreaming about.

Argh.

Back home early today.

Finally.

Got a long day to go tmr

Wo de ma got driving :<

Everyday, I am secretly thankful

Thankful for being alive.

For not being knocked down

For not being swept away by tsunami

For not drowning
For not strangled

& so much more.

Then I get another day to do what I want.

To do all the things I have never did before.

Carpe Diem.

I hope from disaster survive.

那些年

Hope I will get to see it soon.
Tissue paper worthy show, I bet.
Pls don't ignore me after knowing my inner cheena girl.
Omg, dbt when are we ever gonna open world tour!

Anw visited the Night Lights 2011 today.
They have huge balloons over at the NMS omg. so pretty
Red ones with fake domo holding them. (pardon the fake, perhaps it's my own intepretation problem)
Listening to Hebe Tian's new album.
I like the lalalala song

Mini breads I baked!

Meet my more than 10 years old shorts

Busy pace

Oh no school started.
I can feel the busy lifestyle already.
Goodness.
I hope I can juggle everything.
Everyday Im so afraid what if I cant wake up early.
Sigh

보고싶어요

Finally I have the korean input on desktop.

Yes, I have decided to RE-learn korean again.

Told myself to do it at the start of the yr but failed.

But now, I doing quite fine.

Learning bit by bit so that I can travel there hopefully next yr or so.

HEHE :D

....

So to keep this post slightly longer, here's what I have been doing.

- Went for sch camp (Im not your best camper material lol)

- Visited B bakery finally :D

- First visit to MDIS in their excursion bus & ate nothing at their kopitiam (Coughs)

- Had a XXL pizza for meimei's birthday

- Bought new shoes (Contemplating whether I should get some1 to help me take shoots for outfit someday)

-Found out that my rainbow nerds spoilt (Threw them away n sulk the whole day)

- Had my fav Raffles mooncake (shall do the sampling at taka 1 day LOL)

- Bought avocado juice from AV market :D

...

Shall sleep early.

Tmr will be another big day.

Orientation. (Scary much)

“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.”

- William Shakespeare (but I googled some said it isn't by him)

Pretty relaxed recently.
Am doing lotsa things at the moment like catching up on reading, shows, fashion etc.

LOL.

Totally excited abt my exploring.

HEHE

The entire bukit timah.

Wait for me after I get my student card.

& all the food shall be packed in my little tummy.

Argh. Didnt run today

COMBOS

Craving for it
Not esp helpful when it's not easy to find.
When there's will, there's a way.
I should probably stop snacking
1 or 2 Tim Tam daily has contributed to weight gain.
Crap
....

I try a couple of new things this week.
Inclusive of banging into glass door.
Well done, me.
Been reading a couple of books.
Inspirational I must say.
Which is why I'm gonna be a good girl and go do something else.
Stay safe people.

Fear of hunger

Hypoglycemia?

I'm scared.

I wished my stomach will only growl when I'm hungry.

When I get real hungry, my body shakes.

I can't help but to keep shivering.

I can't think straight & it's the only time when I really want to cry without really the intention to.

I hate it.

I have to remind myself to keep eating.

Even when the situation forbids.

Dear self, be strong.

Remember to bring some candy with you.

SAD FACE.

GAMES

I don't really understand about games.
As in like why winning is so impt in games?
If there is presents/incentives, I understand the motivation.

But let's say if only the losing person has to do forfeit, then why?
Why people is afraid of losing.
How come we must always win?
In everything, when someone wins, someone else is bound to lose.
How come it is wrong to lose?
People can't be always good at all times.
Why they can't see that?
Hmm

Under the stars

Oh man want to go watch the concert

I know, practicality.

But all of their music are those that I like, in other words (non-mainstream)

SIGH.

....

Exploring exploring.

Keep going.

Will be a good girl, shall make lists.

1. Upon arrival. Jetty = entrance of resort. It has my fav swing as well

2. Lemon chicken ( Or rather orange!) They serve desserts after meals, I like.

3. View while doing milk bath over the spa area. So close, so close.

4. The beach with clear water. Totally adore it. We did kayaking & snorkelling there as well.

5. Picked this brochure when I was at Marang Jetty. Introducing my fav uncle ( the one on the right!) :D Cause he held my hand during snorkelling as I told him I was very scared despite wearing life jacket. ( Think 5m deep for a poor swimmer & jelly fishes around)

Pulau Gemia (Gem Island)

I was trying to load the bulk up on Facebook.
Apparently, it is being annoying.
So I picked a few that I like and shared over here instead.
....

It's a nice little island.
Located near Redang and Pulau Kapas, the entire island has only 1 resort.
So if you are looking something really private, it's great.
It has 3 beaches, great scenery, good food & friendly staff.

However be prepared though, no electricity from 230-530pm daily as well as insects lurking around (We had flying cockroach on the last day, harmless lizards & killer mosquitoes)

....

Most of the tourists there are Caucasians, so wearing bikini and walking barefoot is totally fine.
I didn't try the barefoot part. HAHA

Everyday, the meals have fixed timings like 7-10am for breakfast, 12-2 for lunch and 7-10 for dinner.
As ours is a package, our meals are included. (More on the asian side. Totally fine with me cause it's real good)

& they have turtle conservation area. They breed turtles until they are bigger before releasing back to sea.

So you get to see the little ones swimming near the entrance.

Pretty cute to watch them attempting to escape. hahaha

....

I like the pace of life over at Gem Island.

Do visit there okay, perhaps after the monsoon season.
I guess it's starting in Aug or so.
:D

Back (I knoww)

I will do a proper post about my trips soon.

I feel happier and sadder at the same time.
已經很勇敢　還是難過
I can't explain the song.

On the go again.

....

I will make it.

Strike off will.

Shall replace it with must

Return of the red nails

am back for a few days (:

like how things are different.

Am happy though sick.

Meow

& If I dont sleep now..

Well, things happen.

Anw am a happy girl.

Bought my hypersharp liner & got ticket alr.

Lmk if any of you going.

HEHEHE

Mooncake festival coming *grins

Excited much.

Until the very end.

Anw I reread the fifth time to realise the Prof Trelawney (not sure I get the spelling right) threw her crystal balls during The battle of Hogwarts

AHAHHAHA super funny

Potter & my books.

I want to find someone who I knew as long to watch the show together.
I remembered I watched my part 1 on dvd player.
Funny much.
&& I want to create memories for it.
Maybe maybe I will just go down to one cinema and watch.
Alone & for potter.

....

HP 7

So excited!

Who wna watch :D

背影- 朱自清

今天，突然想起这篇文章。

总觉得背影说着很多故事

车站有一对母子 等着车

夜已深 孩子陪着母亲等待巴士

等呀等， 巴士终于来了

母亲挥挥手向儿子道别， 连忙把手一伸担心巴士跑了

母亲上巴士的同时，儿子缓缓的往回走

时不时转个头，瞧一瞧妈妈是否安全

妈妈上车前，也回头望了一眼

还是催儿子回去 别送了

巴士临走前，母子俩还是在寻找着彼此的身影 挥了挥手

那一刻，我哭了

Sorry, I'm such a softie.

If it's meant to be

If it happens, thank you.

If it doesn't, still thank you.

....

cuts everywhere.

Even walking the steps can happen.

Bloody week.

Sigh

Hello baby, for mommy

No koh samui, redang seems not bad as well right?

Im still unhappy.

New fangirl for Mr scotti love love :D

DIET WEEKENDS

.edit

Well actually I failed.

Went exploring today.

Was unhappy but had a pleasant surprise with all the things I saw today.

Not bad makes me happier.

&& I just found out my beloved to eat list.

That needs updates and cancelling.

OMG so many places to visit once I got my pay.

HEHEHE

&& where are you when I need you most?

哥哥说女生气质好可以遮盖她们的愚蠢

Wells, I think it's true.

When you see different people, different things stand out.

Some may be looks, intelligence, attitude, personality.

.....

Still so tired.

Mental battle when will you end?

Ni hao wo sick le

:<

This song is on replay thanks to golden melody awards.

I like A-Lin's rendition of JJ's song

Needa sleep early.

Busy days(week) ahead!

STUCK HOME WEEKEND

Am sick SADFACE

Muscle ache for god knows what reason

Cannot go running and get my new shoes

(which I really hated myself for procrastinating)

...

& Dad decided to go father's day celebration with fellow daddies and ditched us.

then my throat hurts now so can't go tong xue hui SAD

But then I wanna go check out F21 at orchard exchange.

LOL

Confusing mind :<
....

I miss you, ukulele.

I DON'T PLEASE

I'm sorry but I work like a man.

I don't do all the " hi, how's your weekend" or " nice shoes you have"

I'm so much more masculine, just do my work, knocked off and go.

If you're capable, I will respect and admire as much you deserved.

& if you spent your time supposedly to be working on other impt issues like pleasing your superior or like socializing, I'm sorry I really loathe your working attitude.

There're plenty of such people out there in the society, i'm sure.

....

I'm not your typical nice decent girl.

Yes, I know that image makes you get away with many things.

Like how you can make people do favour for you.

Like how when people get mad at you even if you're the one in the wrong, people sympathetise you.

Wells, I don't give a damn on how people see me.

You talk about people, you get talked about.

That's life, deal with it.

I know how people will say that's stupid of me.

Trying to be someone I'm not is even worse than being stupid for me.

I don't boast I have many friends ( well in my case rarely LOL)

What are friends? My friends are not just a number for you to gawk at in facebook.

If having so many friends is your only special point, then it's your friends that are special not you.

I don't discuss what I do over the weekends during work

Because I don't see the point of sharing (READ: flaunting) how fun was the activity you had or how expensive your weekend was.

I can't wait to go.

Can't wait to be myself again.

JUST LIKE PIMPO

I look exactly like my soft toy now :<

Whose endearing name is proudly named by me as Pimpo

cause it has pimples/freckles on the cheeks.

& now I'm the same :'<

everyday I just felt like heading home straight.

now you can tell how insecured im as a person

....

I need to get my running shoes for real.

Like stop procrastinating & go jogging regularly.

Hope that the job picks me 1st then I'll have the money.

Omg at the library in Koh Samui

So wna go who's in?

But expensive rates.

Batam, JB wo lai le~

Note to self: Change contact lens

I feel so worn out recently.

keep sleeping & sleeping

hope to get a new job soon.

& stop eatinggg!

check out these lovely cakes

1 day, they will be in my stomach LOL

"I'm scared all the time.

What you're calling bravery, that's me pushing back against my fear of everything.

That's how I take care of myself."

吳寶春!

So wanna eat his bread.

& 谢和弦's music is really good.

Makes me happy :D

...

Went bbdc today.

Panicked a bit but I managed lol

more trips to there soon.

Hope to get it once and for all.

...

CRAZY WORLD CAFE

Had lunch at this place today.

Totally my place.

HAHAH cause they sing all the chinese songs you'll never hear on radio stations

& Bailey's cheesecake, be good (I'll be back for you!)

....

Went down to submit my timesheet today
Saw so many dependent people in office
I don't get it
Since it's your pay & your timesheet, you're responsible why do you have to get other people to submit for you?
Why so reliant when you alr know that it's so far and that's your job
What makes you think that the person who is going there to submit has to help you to do so.
On what basis that they are obliged? What if they decided not to.
This is bad right, I'm too independent & individualistic alr
....

& boy, I feel so sad for this little secondary sch boy today
He came in to deliver some boxes of files we ordered.
I saw his face and it pained me suddenly.
Like so young out to earn money through hardship, depressing.
& nobody notices it.
That made me even sadder :<

Ice fishing

Omg, I think I must be a weirdo wanting to go ice fishing

It seems so fun!

But well not applicable in our context

Whiny much.

....

Need help in my writing of appeal letter!

Hector & the search for happiness

Am reading this book.
Very interesting.

Have read till lesson #12

Wait till I finished reading and I'll share more.

I need to unfavourite you

...

OMG loving the mulberry friendship bracelet

I need some loving friend to get it for me. LOL

Will love you so much for that

Dinner with my 1st friend

My primary sch 1st friend.

I rmb how I struggled to read her name last time.

She corrected me but I still got it wrong.

I rmb what she told me but yet I don't really get it till I grew up.

It's nice to meet ppl you knew when you're young.

We had no intentions then.

We just want to play and go home happily.

It's makes you smile from within.

It's cute when how you can say ask how are their parents because they knew you as well.

I feel happy.

....

What do you want from me?

Not mainstream

I wish I'm more mainstream.

In a sense, care more about things that generally people do.

Like graduation.

Well, grad is like 2 days away.

Err, I will get my robe on that day itself only ( since it's borrowed LOL)

I have yet decided what to wear.

People generally want to share their joy with other people for graduation

In terms of asking their whosoever (include parents/friends/boy or girlfriend you know) to attend.

Have someone to bring them flowers/balloons to congratulate and then take photos.

But seriously, I don't want that.

Hell no.

Just get over and done with.

Sorry no offence, it's a just dip not a degree.

What's with the fuss?

To be frankly honest, I don't even want my parents to attend

Im not proud of what I have achieved because I thought I could have done better so no point getting them to sit and watch politely while their daughter is apparently not the best or the group of the better ones

See my POV, totally off the track.

SIGH

....

& I just discovered couple of bruises and cut on my body.

No idea how I got them but sure hurts like mad.

To turn dreams into action

To make thoughts into verbs.

That is if all else fail.

...

Low self esteem days expected for a forecast of at least 1 wk.

Im prepared to stay at home at all cost unless necessary.

There are things that I never brought up again but yet still meant a whole lot to me

So insecured.

& my body mass just show a significant increase of 1000g

That's life.

& so tmr shall be a burn-fat day

...

I need to honestly move my ass to BBDC & start learning driving

Should I or not?

Crap the June BBT is full gotta wait till July

Damn it

NOT FOR THE HUNGRY PPL

B & J Free Cone Day - Peanut butter flavor Colleague made this (with celery and I finished them all OMG)Ba Zhang from honglim yum yumMaxwell tang yuan :D:DOffice table meow :xMaxwell's kuah chap ( $3.50 only super nice!)Otw back from posting lettersPopiah competition

& there's my tian tian chicken rice which I have yet posted up

Okay partly because I'm lazy.

HEHE

Anw food makes up generally most of my working period since work is boring :<

...

Super tired and busy recently which is quite good.

HEHE since more money is coming in.

& keeps me less worried over things.

....

Filled with activities this wk oh man

Cuts and such

Full of paper cuts.

Hate all the notes for the seminars

Thanks to the new shoes that bite

my feet hurts too

....

Solace

I don't know what my granny is feeling. How is it like to remember things and forgetting it the next moment? I feel so helpless & so broken hearted for her. I looked at my cousins, bunch of strangers gathered together for the reason that we somehow shared some traits thanks to certain DNA.

She seemed happy though, on her own. Singing songs, doing people watching, time to time walking to the corridor. Occasionally, she asked you who're you, how old are you. She is lost track of time. Time doesn't really matter to her.

I wanted to do more, I don't know how or what to begin with.

Oddly calm

I finally found this song.
Makes me :)
Heard it on bro's car otw home the other day

....

Stuffing myself with food.
Bad move.

Like I didn't miss you thrice

Im excited over the election results

Gonna camp at home.

HAHHA

....

So fast gonna be friday alr :>

Feeling down still

But getting better

Needa shop

But I just splurge.

Bleah

To never see my tears, I close my eyes when I cry.

So many things happening.

& alot of thoughts forming with alot more thinking to go.

I promise I'll be ready soon.

Meanwhile, excuse me while I go seek for a solution.

...

Exhausted

I shall go sleep.

I never get to see Nathan.

There goes my dream

Ma you ji stall auntie is my friend alr!
hahaah got extra food (:

My dream shoes but no $$$

Updatess

Am supposed to go shopping today :<

But ended at home rotting.

Cause rain in the morning jogging plans cancelled (YAY)

Then salary not in yet

Cannot get my mother's day present and sport shoes.

How depressing.

....

Im annoyed by my own pms-y mood

Plus listening to upsetting songs doesn't help

MAJOR SAD FACE

誰跟我說　笑一個　一個　然後呢

Tummy hurts

My tummyache is getting serious i think.

Papa says it's stress from work.

Goodness.

Maybe it's a sign

.....

Page 3 out of 30 says 4 more before it reaches the end.

....

I have yet seen my mom and bro for past 2 days.

They slept before I got home and left/was still sleeping when I left for work.

How sad.

Heart on wrist

For the self harm and depression awareness day.

Wear your heart on wrist just like you wear your heart on sleeve.

...

People closest to you always hurt you the most.

For all you know, you may have hurt me whether intentionally or not.

Feelings that got trampled on.

Sorry.

How feeble is that.

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Tmr I shall be a good girl.

I shall start doing all my research.

& stupid tiger just have to be on newspaper when I have the intention to book tickets.

The woes of skinny

Being skinny is not as easy as it seems.

People envy, people look at you, you get to wear all the beautiful clothes.

Well, that's the positive side.

Bet you didn't know the other side of it.

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Skinny #1 : People comment on your skinny-ness.

Look, if you're fat, no one will say it right in your face.

But if you're skinny, everyone says it in front of you.

Hello, it's equally upsetting okay

Skinny #2: You're mistaken as a model wannabe/diet-er

Once again, I'm born this way.

No I didn't try to look size 0 to look like those models on runway

Those people survive on smoking and drinks only.

Stop give me the disapproving look.

& I don't diet.

I do cut down on intake on days where I felt that I ate too much the day before.

How wrong is that?

Skinny#3 Clothes still have to be altered

Who told you skinny girls get to wear all the clothes

Ask skinny people whether they need to alter those bottoms due to waist size

Ask them do they wear elastic banded bottoms.

Skinny #4 Skinny people get bullied

Well, skinny people pays the same fare on transport when the area that we took up is smaller than others. We often get pushed around because others think that we are like the poles they are holding on to.

Part II: We pay for clothes with less cloth since it is XS but yet it is priced at the same price as XL size. We're disadvantaged when the cloth price is being absorbed by us. Seriously.

Skinny #6 Skinny people are also vulnerable/weak

Hello, I can carry stuff also.

Stop assuming that I'm so fragile.

If others can do it, why can't I?

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Im sorry if I offended anyone esp when weight is a sensitive issue.

But being skinny isn't as good as what you think.

Really but grass is always greener at the other side.

Pictorial explanation of I am up to recently

So tired recently.

Like work home sleep dinner sleep work again

Routine for everyday

Insert in random meetings/gatherings after dinner occasionally.

For money and the better future (or I should say funding for clothes/travel)

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My hair got those annoying knots.

You know it's indication that it's getting long.

So irritating.

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Why oh why

"The only obsession everyone wants: Love.

People think that in falling in love they make themselves whole?

The Platonic union of souls?

I think otherwise. I think you’re whole before you begin.

And the love fractures you.

You’re whole, and then you’re cracked open

- Tumblr"

Exactly, I second that

I think I should tumblr too.

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I should start planning my july trip.

Just me & nobody crazy huh?

Or maybe I should shift it for my 21st.

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Major blow since yesterday.

I'll be ready again.

Give me time.

I hope I will never know the truth of where I stand.

If not I think I will cry/bawl/scream or any terrible way you think I can.

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Life as adult is terrible.

See, that's why people like Disneyland.

MEGA CRAMPS

Sounds like Mega veggie.

OMG I feel like crap now

& I cant go to bed.

Cause I just bathed.

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Anw just for thought,

Media people are influential.

They can make you see what they want you to see.

The power of words.

(Y)

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The happiest thing that happen to me today didn't make me as happy as I thought.

Cause too many other unhappy things are shrouding it.

Damn it. Go away.

Eating good

The most impt moment during work is lunch (can't fault me when I'm sooo close to good food)

HAHAHHAHA

& so I'm like conducting research right now.

But recently I got addicted to this chicken noodles super nice

Must wait for like 15 mins though.

& so tmr I have intention to try peranakan food/bak chor mee.

+ milk tea (for tmr only)

I'm such a disciplined girl.

I don't have drinks to go along with my lunch usually.

Extra calories.

So wna pat my back and beam at myself.

LOL

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Can't wait for payday!

& now I'm pissed ttm

Story goes:

1. C asked for trades for my either 2 items for her 2 items. ( May I specific my both items are from lollyrouge)

2. I find it weird as normally ppl usu give you the website instead of specific item

3. So I ask for the other item picture as she only provided 1 picture

4. & So I'm interested in her BN missypixie shelly ( which in her case didnt mention whether it's BN or what)

5. Then C finds my picture too small and request for more photo cause she can't decide ( Hello, it's blogshop photos alr what you want)

6. & so I emailed her my photos (3MB each okay) & mention that 1 of my dress was torn at the side but was mended & not visible cause I myself can't rmb where it is.

7. Then she say she'll pass cause it's mended! Not like I'm selling you torn dresses pls (hello, trade is a mutual thing.)

8. So I kindly replied her asking if she wants to have a look at the mend(while im looking for it)

9. Let me quote word by word:

nope its okaay! cos my shelly is new, so i rather trade it with new stuff! ya sorry again!

You in the 1st place alr know my dress isn't BN

Cause I wrote Preloved ( Hi darling which part of preloved does it mention BN?)

I just fb-ed check you.

Thanks nbs girl. I'll look out for you if I ever get there.

Blueberry pancakes

Like KFC like that. HAHAH I made one okay.

Anw started work. But looking forward to holidays Ironic anot?

Be prepared to hear me whine

(20 working days x 3 )= 60

60 - 3 =57 working days

Finally got money to pay school fees next time :D

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& UNLV shortlisted me for interview HEHEH happy girl Pls NUS NTU SMU choose me choose me!

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Thought you all may be interested in Bird

This is theme song for me & grace okay LOL I'm confused recently Mentally prepared to fight the long process After all it's the same last time.

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& it isn't my fault for being nasty and mean Really. It's just all the bad things that are happening to me I mean like I go mac for breakfast, I'm the only one with cold water for tea. Everyone submit their supporting doc by post, the staff suggested me to hand submit it and it nearly got lost. Tell me, how to keep my cool. If you can, kindly show me

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朋友 :(

Drive Drove Driving Driven

Call me the poor kid.

Cause right now I don't like the idea of being staying in a car and being driven here and there.

I know, ppl will sure say good life what why not

But I don't like it.

Guess I'm used to public transport for the past 20 yrs.

I don't rely on cabs much either.

So I'm absolutely fine with bus & MRT ride.

I mean come on, it's inconvenient right if heading diff areas.

But you still gotta act nice and offer a ride.

While the driver is driving, I got nothing to do.

I can just sit there admire the roads.

Must still maintain small talks while on bus I can just like listen to poddy and do some ppl watch.

& you can't fault for being late

Cause the driver is someone you know.

See, parking takes a long time also.

You gotta be patient and not run off.

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& no I dont like to kao guan xi

BAD TIMES

Let us rmb the good times

20岁小寿

Rollercoaster ride.

Up down up down.

I can't tell if tmr's gonna be up or down

Pray for better

I miss whining to my classmates haha

Worth the wait.

Pretty pls

REQUEST: adult version pls!

Have a smashing time this wk, ppl.

Life's good (:

Born this day

#bornthisday is tweeting & so I realised Lady Gaga is born on March 28th. & therefore, I conclude March ppl are just purely weird. Thankyou Gaga. ...

I got lotsa exciting photos recently. Since I'm jobless and have plenty of time Shall show you ppl soon. HEHEH Pls let me get the PT job So that I can start saving up for my 21st present ....

Sometimes the lower expectation you have, the greater surprise you get (:

Birthday week

Not just me.

but my mom's too.

Off to get her cake later.

But bro is away already.

Went to the place where Barbie hsu's wedding was.

Maybe he will get to see them

LOL

& my dad is flying on my birthday.

pfft.

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Back back

Finally in SG for good.

Till I raised enough money to fly again.

LOL
Flight got delayed then the plane unable to land due to fog.

The more worried you get, the worse the situation gets.

Collected 2 pages worth of stamps by going in & out of Macau.

If only there's more time.

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爱是愚人的国度

Stef sun are on replay recently.

My films are developed after 9075369643 years.

Memories that what photos give right.

They're proof that things exist isn't it?

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To the SQ japanese lady at Narita,

Thank you.

Thank you for being sweet and remember my name.

Thank you for being helpful, taping my zip with tape.

I hope you're gonna survive & your family too.

xx

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Mary & Max anyone?

Can't buy my love

I'm glad I'm back.
We had plans to extend the trip to sunday actually.
If it does happens, well prolly I won't be back already.
Perhaps, not my time to die yet.
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That made me think.
If I am dying, what are the things I have not done and will regret?
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Unicorn origami.
I dreamt of someone giving it to me.
So cute.
hahah

Travelling is one man's escape to another city that another man got sick of.

Hi, i'm back.
I don't really like the idea of coming back.
AHHAHA
Esp once you're back it's welcome to reality
with so many issues and events happening in your life
Like applications.
I should totally complete my SIT, NUS & NTU finanical/scholarship stuff
& did I mention that I forget to apply scholarship for NTU cause it ended on 28th not 1st apr.
Totallly dumbass me.

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& job searching.
It's not fun at all.
But due to overspending.
Wells, it's time to face the music.
& my friends are all super efficient made me felt like a worrywart.
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Then it's my birthday.
Which I'm not really looking forward to.
It feels like a normal day this yr.
Not special just a day I feel like working.
Pls let me get the $20/hr job (cross fingers)

If you're sweet and decide to get me a present.
Do get me smth I can use, something practical.
& I'll love you much.
Thanks!
Btw I'm away from 20-24, 25& 26 working.
In case you needa plan anything.
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Tokyo is a really fun place.
I got a feeling I'm gonna head back someday
Despite language barrier, everything is great.
I like how I can wear anything and not get stared.
I like how all of them are not tall
I like how good their service is.
I like how the trains allow food & drinks
& I like how pretty & handsome all of them are.
HHAHAHA

AWAY

Heading off to japan less than 12h.

Omg it's my fyp presentation on tmr & mon.

I'm crossing my fingers for DBT.

No matter what be it good or bad, I love you guys.

lotsa love n luck (L)

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I so wanna watch gnomeo & juliet.

I love cartoons/animation or whatever you call it.

They have happy endings.

They are positive, made me believe everything is great.

HAHA

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It's the end of poly life

3 yrs but i always ended up typing 3 days

Im so lucky to be classmates with my classmates

I mean come on, they say poly is a scary place.

Wells, I think it's true but my classmates are such angels.

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Gonna settle uni applications when I'm back.

meanwhile stay out of trouble, be good.

Love u all.

38.8 Degrees

Well, it has been long since I last had fever.

Shivering but yet body is burning

How all the words seem to be dancing round.

& I can hardly drink water cause my throat is sore.

Life's sad esp if it happens on last day of paper

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Love & hate march though.

Travelling, good food yes that made me happy.

Imagine all the results & me being 20 isn't very exciting.

Seems like it's time to do some work.

Omg, I should totally plan out what to eat for my birthday alr

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This birthday I decided what I want already.

Meet my dream man (Okay, although abit old)
HAHAHA
Seriously, if all men like him are gay (like in the video), I think I'm gonna cry.
Check out his tattoo at the basketball scene.

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Failed studying session today
Omg am still dizzy
Come on, be strong body.

Kindly allow me to introduce you to the photos above.

Picture 1 - Crepes selling at BV. The lady always got the sides torn for the crepes she made. So while watching them, I think I complaint too loudly, then the dude who got out to talk on the phone I supposed overheard it.
Wells, he attempted to give us a free crepes for free.
But guess what? He gave us the one on display (which I have no idea what intention is that)
Thanks man.

Picture 2 - Sentosa flowers
Picture 3 - My last day of school's lunch at FC4
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My friends & their boyfriends

Was talking to my friend abt the boyfriend issue earlier on.
If I'm to be introduced to them, I must get prepared mentally.
I don't like the idea of having awkward moments if it's gonna be 3 of us.
Imagine that. (Like what am i supposed to talk abt? Clothes? Studies? Weather?)

I can't gossip with my friend in front of him
That will put both of us in bad light
& what if I'm become the forbidden friend?
Goodness, I don't wna be the topic for quarrel.
HAHAH

I can't be too friend-friend with him as well.
Imagine the couple quarrelled, whose side am I supposed to take man?
Then what if my friend don't like the way I interact with her bf.

Therefore, my take on this is: Better be safe than not.
Avoid being too close.
Prepare adequately.
Be polite.
Put your friend in good light to score more points.
Tada, you're awesome friend :D
hahaha

Okay, was feeling dizzy in the morning & during paper.
Should sleep soon.